my story

Dear.. Idk

I would like to share you something about my love story at 3rd junior high school. This love story ain't like cinderella or sleeping beauty story but its sad story, really sad.

Me and my bestfriend, called "shene" (just call her like that, I'm not gonna tell you about her anyway) she is my bestfriend, really close with me, she already knew that I'm in love with "bene" (wasn't real name) for a longggg time, she told me to gave up on him, but I couldn't.. I just couldn't. Then one day, idk if my feeling was true, I'm just thinking that they both were so different, not like usual, and I tried to ignored that. Then at the break time, she took me to someplace and told me something that made my heart like DUAAARRRRRR!!! Guess what? HE SHOOT HER! Wow.. Unbelievable, I'm speechless at the moment, then she said "I'm sorry" I'm just.. Crushed.. My heart was broken into the pieces, Idk what to say, I'm just... Don't believe it, how could he took her, while he knew that I'm in love with him and he already knew that SHE IS MY BESTFRIEND?! I couldn't stand, like the gravity stopped and I couldn't felt my feet on the ground, I'm dying..

She hugged me tight and said "I'm sorry" I tried to hold my tears and said "its okay dear, its ok if he took you, I couldn't do anything rite? He choose you". "Is it okay?" "Yea baby" I said with the strong face. Then I walked with her to the classroom. I couldn't hold my tear, I just crying there and she looked me and said "are you okay? I told you..." "That's okay" I said then I walked out. When the school is over she took me to that place and hugged me "I will let him go, I will never love him but please don't leave me. You're my bestfriend" she said, "its okay, just go with him, have fun! He choose you. However, you guys make out or not it doesn't matter for me. I'm fine" I said with smiled. Then she hugged me "you're my bestfriend" she said. I walked home with broken heart, sad face and dying. I didn't have any spirit anymore, I cried loudly as I could.

Now, I just can let it go I can't force him to love me, it doesn't make him open his heart for you. So, please don't waste your time for a boy who ignore you :) you're too adorable and important for that :)