my last day at EF cinere, conversation class.

today, is my last day at ef cinere, not my last day but my last class conversation with mr.Mike. well, i had a lot of friends here, they're selfie, nicole, rhyne, zulaeha and many more, they're so fckng hilarious! one day without them, i felt.. empty LOL. then my teacher, his so fckng weird haha his face hahaah i cant stop laughing when i saw his picture in yuri's phone haha.


today we got dinner together at class and having fun! haha we watch his video when he was at his aunt house and he felt bored then made that video haha and that's so funny. and then he bought us a pizza and nicole brought her spaghetti. i brought some plats and spoons. then we took some pictures, we laugh together like.. i'll never feel this way again. hemm even tonight i got a bit dizzy but.. its gone already haha. yea tonight its so damn hilarious! I LOVE TONIGHT. thanks guys thanks mr.Mike.

different

he came into my life. firstly, i dont really think about it, not even once. but now? its different, i missed him. just one day i didn't contact him like.. ;;) you know how its like lol.

he came and change everything. first of all, he change my feeling to HIM :") i'm very thankful for that. he helps me for this, forget HIM and just walk away. i think, i already open my heart for him, yea easily. and i'm afraid of falling in love again, idk why, maybe you can solve this?-_-
well, he always made me like "wow" not beautiful or something, but he made me like i can forget HIM, he always tried to helped me to solve my problem, he's the only one that helped for my problem, all of it. aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa i dont know what should i do-_- its confusing but.. haha i love this situation where i could forget HIM even for a second.

words

"I'm sorry, i wasn't there to catch the fall, I didn't hear you when you've called all of those nights, Please don't forget the good days with me, i can make back the heart aching beat when it gets dark and it's hard to see I'll turn on the lights. Before you go away, so far away, i really need you to know. baby it's not just you, you know it hurts me too, watching you leave. I'm sorry for giving up on us, i know that you're hurting, hey me too. i'm sorry cause i can't do my best, its hard to see when your eyes got wet and begged me to not leave, and i'm sorry for leaving, cause i don't wanna hurt you. "

missed you

i miss you :( i miss everything about you. your laugh, smile, anger, your everything. i miss you when you call me "that" way, sounds special. i'm sorry if i always made mistakes when we were together, i'm sorry for made all my mistakes as yours, i'm sorry for always teasing you, i just want to know, did you really love me? ofc for that moment.

now? its different, we're different. i'm sorry to ended this relationship, cause i know deep in my heart i can't do this anymore, its.. done for me, but i know that you still want to keep this, i can feel it. i can't stand to see your eyes, cause i dont have any courage to do that, i'm too weak to look at your eyes perfectly. your eyes told me everything, i just couldn't see that, everytime i try to.. i always crying.

i never told you the reason why i ended this relationship. because i'm afraid, i'm afraid that you'd love me deeper while i have nothing left for you anymore, i dont want to hurt you by telling you the truth, but i dont want to hurt you by telling you the lie either, its confusing a lot, but i had to choose, and i choose to giving up on us, and i'm so sorry for that :') but you deserve to have someone better than me :)

From Me to You

The day i left, i always remember about you. Your smile, laugh, and everything. Even though i never saw all of them. But, i can imagine about it, and seems real.

When i saw you walk in and you look at me then you walk away, you’ve made my day, really. Don’t you see all the time i always imagine that you and i could be together as one, ONE DAY. Haha yea its hoping.

I’m trying to not care about anything that according to you, look i’m trying. Even i know you’ve fell down into my deepest heart, i can’t reach and pull you up. And when i can, it hurts inside. So let me in and change your world, even i know you won’t let me.

flashback

I walked around those places, then I go back to the past, when last night. was a beautiful moment has been missed, I missed that night. Can we repeat it just for a moment? just for a second, i thought that i'll go to that moment again, MAYBE. 


well, i just want to see you again. hope we can meet again, say hello to each other, hand shaking probably? lol yea its not gonna be happened. i just wondering to myself, why i can like you? why?! you're too older for me, yea its not really old like 40 years old, but.. for my age at this time, you're too old for me. i know this ain't make any sense but.. i like you, for your voice omg.. i just can't ignore even for a second haha.
well, can someone please explain why i write this on my site? i dont get it YET. but yea probably this is the problem, i like someone and he's older than me, that's it.

when i walked to that place, it always reminds me about your smile while you looking at me haha, it so simple but for a girl like me, just one smile from you it made my day. remember MADE MY DAY.