missed you

i miss you :( i miss everything about you. your laugh, smile, anger, your everything. i miss you when you call me "that" way, sounds special. i'm sorry if i always made mistakes when we were together, i'm sorry for made all my mistakes as yours, i'm sorry for always teasing you, i just want to know, did you really love me? ofc for that moment.

now? its different, we're different. i'm sorry to ended this relationship, cause i know deep in my heart i can't do this anymore, its.. done for me, but i know that you still want to keep this, i can feel it. i can't stand to see your eyes, cause i dont have any courage to do that, i'm too weak to look at your eyes perfectly. your eyes told me everything, i just couldn't see that, everytime i try to.. i always crying.

i never told you the reason why i ended this relationship. because i'm afraid, i'm afraid that you'd love me deeper while i have nothing left for you anymore, i dont want to hurt you by telling you the truth, but i dont want to hurt you by telling you the lie either, its confusing a lot, but i had to choose, and i choose to giving up on us, and i'm so sorry for that :') but you deserve to have someone better than me :)