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Tell me somethin I don't know. Tell me that I wasn't born here. But now its too late, I was. I would went to somewhere, but I didn't knew where. I wanna hide, and disappear. Maybe this was what you feel when I was with them, but I didn't got it now. And maybe never. Whatever.

I knew you're smarter or better or beautiful or thin than me. But... Arrrggghhh whatever! I was pretended that I didn't care! But the truth was I did. Bitch! I ENVY YOU!!! Why you're so perfect, emm.. Almost.

God! Lead me to the lights. Lead me to the heaven. Maybe I would found some peace there. with tears, withOUT you, pains, or anything bad I will go through all days, start from now. I didn't care, I mean I was trying to didn't. And the question of everything is "WHY" may someone answer it? Or no one? Yes ofc no one can answer my question.
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I got ice in my veins, blood and tears in my eyes, hate in my heart and lil bit love in my mind. Yea as y'know, hate to be honest, but I have to. I hate to be honest that I hate you but I love you, yea somethin like that, so hard to explain.

I don't have any time for always think about you. You don't even think about me either. Yeah you can call it "NO CARES" about what I feel and about what happen to me. You just let it happen without want to know the REASON. Good isn't it? Bahahahahaha lol

I don't care what people said about my feels. I just feel it, I don't have to ask any permission or any excuse for that. Yeah like its FREE, no PAYMENT.

Boys said "I would past a thousand pain, hamparan padang pasir yang luas, dan dalamnya lautan, hanya untuk bisa bersamamu". Is it true? HAHA hey dude, no one could and would to past hamparan padang pasir yang luas apalagi dalamnya lautan, yes ofc you're joking!! Very funny! Some dudes(boys) just think about "what kind of words I will give to her?" Not about "what kind of sacrifice I will do for her?" Yes so many GUY always talk about WORDS! And promises not SACRIFICE! This story is between you and me, you and her. Yea its complicated! That's why this story named "complicated".
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Would you please tell me why I fell in love with you? Why you do this to me? Make me fell in love then flying with your lovely words then you let me down. Why? Is it WRONG WHEN I FALL IN LOVE WITH YOU? Why?! Because I'm ugly? Fat? Thin? Black? You care about what people says? JERK! Why? Why no one cares to me? (Ofc except my parents) why they're always underestimated me? Why they won't see my works when I force them to see it and give a positive response just to make me happy?! Why they don't understand about what I want? Why?! THE QUESTION IS ONLY WHY! Okay? Understand? No? GTFO Btch!

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I wrote here just for fun. Emm not really fun, just like diaries, but not really diaries. Yeah whatever you want to call this blog-_- but truth I do this because I just want to share some stories to entertain you guys.
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